Archive for May, 2015

Fast enough for me (?)

Tuesday, May 19th, 2015

A week before my mother died, I was busier than I remembered being. It was spring, and getting late for some of the yardwork (gardens have deadlines). The boys were constantly on the move. Lessons, shows, just get-togethers and parties (they must be driven to and fro – they must be fed!). I was working full time from my home office, stopping by to see mom whenever it fit into events. Then my wife caught the flu and lay down on our bed for five days.

I like it when situations become hopeless; when it’s unassailably impossible to keep all the balls in the air. I get to do just what must be done, without apology, and as efficiently as I can. I’m freed by circumstance from a sense of responsibility. I’m just a cog in some bigger machine, sloppily doing all, in fact, that ever will be done.